The hashtag #whyIwrite recently made its way to Christian writers on Twitter. Using 140 characters (unless you're one of the elect with the new 280 maximum), several writers gave their writing mission statement per se. This was mine:
I have to share what God reveals to me for the sake of his gospel in the lives of others--for the glory of his name.
It's as simple as that, but let's go deeper into why I'm writing what I'm writing now.
I've been a born again Christian for twenty years. Yet many of those years, I sat confused at how to most glorify God. I knew I wasn't saved by my works, but wouldn't seeking to achieve success in the name of Jesus glorify him to the max? Didn't God want to bless me so I could give him all the credit for it?
Clearly I had the wrong mindset--though my mindset did not always result from sin. Most of the time, I genuinely wanted to glorify God and moved towards what I thought he wanted me to do. At other times, my mind set so hard on plans I made for so many years that I strove with all my might when God was trying to lead me another way.
It took a continual work of the Holy Spirit to renew my mind to the things of God. It took a surrendering of my will, which did align to his will according to Scripture (that's the confusing part), but it wasn't his will for me. Finally, I began to understand what it meant to glorify God in my heart, with humility, and to leave the rest up to him.
Surely the ways of God sit upside down to the world's. But how many of us women get this? How does this change our hearts in how we view education, money, influence, service, sacrifice, etc.? How do we handle our success? What do we make of our failures? Do we understand what brings God pleasure?
So, I have a book idea on this topic. I've had it for months now. I'm even working on it with a publisher and a few awesome mentors. I'm not sure if God will ever do anything with it. It's okay if he doesn't. (That's partly what the book is about, right?)
The challenge I face now is how to make clear what's in my head. There's a lot up there. It's basically my life. Yet how do I make sense of it to others so that they can be stirred to the truth of God's Word in light of our world and to the praise of the glory of God?
This answers the question: Why am I writing what I'm writing now?
I'm working on writing individual articles on the topic and seeing how people resonate with them. Is it clear? Do they struggle with this? To call it challenging is an understatement. My friend, this week, shared with me Flannery O'Conner's quote which says, "I write to discover what I know." Surely I'm figuring out what I DON'T know, but it's a grace to dig more and more into God's Word and my discovery about him!
I've gotten several rejections. If you think most writers think they're the bomb dot com at their craft then you don't understand the process of getting published even on the tiniest medium. Stephen King even speaks of his stack full (before email submissions) of rejection letters. No writer is exempt from the rejection letter.
I've also had several people show extreme kindness. Many see this topic as vital for Christian women--college-aged to thirty-somethings. But I have to learn how to write about it first.
Here's a thank you to any of you who have been touched by the few things I've written on it so far here, here, and here and have shared it with friends. It's a tough line to desire people to read my work while praying God moves their hearts and not wanting to toot my own horn as if I was someone worthy of reading (Thankfully I have loved ones keeping me accountable to this).
I'm no one more than you. I'm a Christian who seeks God and tries to make sense of life through his perspective. Then, I simply write out what I learn.
So, there it is. News that's not so much news, but it shows my heart behind the words you see.
Please pray for me to make clear what God reveals in my mind and heart. Pray for women to desire to let go of perfectionism in the world and to cling to Christ and his perfect-ness. Pray for women to desire to live differently from the world in how they view their success, lack of success, big influence, small influence, and many other avenues.
And please email me your thoughts if you desire.